Even in laughter the heart may ache,
and joy may end in grief.
I find myself grieving on the Lord's day. Through my rejoice and thankfulness at church this morning deep inside I am hurting. I debated whether to write this here but I know I need to, writing has always been therapy for me. If I was grieving for only myself perhaps I would keep the grief to myself. However, today I am mourning the calling of a sweet angel to heaven. Kara Faith's journey has been written so beautifully by her Mother and Father on her blog Kara Faith. God had a plan when he gave Kara to Nancy and Stuart and their children. Beyond the foundation that they have created for other HPE children, Kara has touched the lives of countless people just like me across the world. So beautiful, so perfect. Now she is resting in the arms of her Heavenly Father, peaceful, perfect, and healthy.
Joy may end in grief. How true, so very true. Yesterday started joyous for Kara's family but ended in grief. Likewise, yesterday started joyous for my family and I but ended with heartbreaking sadness. Yesterday confirmed what my husband and I had been suspecting for a week or so; I was pregnant. A long journey to grow our family, a test of faith and trust in the Lord had come to fruition, a blessed new life was growing inside me. Last night it all came crashing down. Through God's infinite wisdom and ultimate plan for my life, he has ushered me onto the road of miscarriage. While deeply saddened and crying as I write this, I have a peace within me that can only come from my Heavenly Father. I am not angry or hopeless. I have complete trust in Him that this is all part of His plan.
Be blessed my dear friends on this Sabbath! Hold your family close. Joy may end in grief.
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